Fluvoxamine 100 mg
space please detail your current medication regimen as well as
recent medical history)
fifth time I’ve started this stupid thing.
record, the only reason I’m doing this is because my mother begged
can’t sleep. I can’t eat. I have a constant headache. I feel
like I’m underwater all of the time. I try to eat, but it’s like
something just grabs my throat right at that moment and absolutely
no food is going down there. The other day at dinner, I chewed that
steak my father made till it turned grey and then I spit it in the
to eat to take these stupid pills you’re making me take which,
just for the record, aren’t making me feel any better.
about me feeling like shit.
DETAIL YOUR SLEEPING PATTERNS
don’t sleep. When I do, I dream about Sarah. When I wake up I
forget for just a second that she’s gone, that she was taken, and
for just a minute my life is what it used to be and then it all
comes crashing down again. Then I want to hit something until my
hand breaks just to make it stop.
AGGRESSIVE WHEN MEDICATING?
many things I’ve broken. Go ahead. Ask her.
CHECKMARK NEXST TO ALL SYMPTOMS THAT APPLY TO YOUR CURRENT DRUG
(Increased heart rate)
LIST ANY ADDITIONAL NOTES HERE:
Well, I did
pretty good on the list. All I got to look forward to is not being
able to get it up, going insane and killing myself.
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NOTES: Patient is suffering from acute PTSD as well as OCD and
depressive disorder after the disappearance and probable death of
this girlfriend Sarah Evans. Possible signs of mania and aggressive
behavior. MSE indicates hostile/guarded/possibly repressed rapport.
Stereotypy includes repetitive clenching of jaw and fist. Mood is
angry/anxious and affect varies from blunted to heightened
suggesting manic-depressive swings. Thought process is steady but
content hinges on obsession over missing girlfriend and possible
delusions regarding her future return. Minor psychotic tendencies.
During sessions patient has reference thought broadcasting and
increase in Fluvoxamine dosage of 50 mg pending results of cognition
Ally Malinenko is the author of the poetry collection, The Wanting Bone (Six Gallery Press), and the children’s novel Lizzy Speare and the Cursed Tomb (Antenna Books). This Is Sarah is her first YA book. Ally lives in Brooklyn with her husband and a very ridiculous tabby cat. She blogs at allymalinenko.com and you can follow her on twitter at @allymalinenko.
When Colin Leventhal leaned out his bedroom window on the night of May 12th and said goodbye to his girlfriend, he never expected it would be forever. But when Sarah Evans goes missing that night, Colin’s world unravels as he is transformed from the boyfriend next door to the main police suspect. Then one year later, at her memorial service, Colin makes a phone call that could change everything. Is it possible that Sarah is still alive? And if so, what is Colin willing to do to bring her back?And as Colin struggles with this possibility, across the street, Sarah’s little sister Claire learns how to navigate the strange new landscape that is life without her sister. Even as her parent’s fall apart, Claire is determined to keep on going. Even if it kills her.
THIS IS SARAH is a meditation on loss, love, and what it means to say goodbye.
And now…for the prettyful cover!